Sunday, January 29, 2017

When Everything Falls Apart

Namaste readers...if any of you are left.

If you're boycotting my blog because you're angry over Donald Trump's ban on Muslims immigrating to the USA, I don't blame you. I did not vote for Trump, but I can still understand why you're angry with me - because I'm too weak to do anything else besides vote.

Almost everything has fallen apart for me recently. I've lost my job, had arguments with family and friends, and I'm generally trying to make some sort of sense out of the mess that has become my present. My future is uncertain. But Trump's actions aren't doing me any favors.

Maybe this is karma finally catching up to me. Maybe this is punishment for my weakness, for my inability to stand up to authority. I have no idea. But this blog will be going on hiatus for the foreseeable future as I try to piece my life back together. I honestly have no idea how I'm going to hold things together. I have to try, though.

If this is supposed to be a test of my faith...then I honestly have no response. I don't know if I'm supposed to believe more than ever, or stop believing entirely. I don't know how to respond.

If Shri Ganesha and Maa Durga are listening...I need their help now more than ever...